My faith and religious beliefs were a big part of this journey. It is for many spouses. In the end, our faith is a very personal decision that we all have to wrestle with and figure out what we believe.
In the beginning, I sure didn't understand why God would allow something like this to happen. I had such dreams of us serving in the church somewhere, just as our relationship had started. I struggled with my own beliefs, and it was quite some time before I could even go into a church, and sit through a service without crying the entire time.
In the end, I have come to believe this. There is a plan for my life and someone much greater than I am is in control of that plan. My experience has given me insight to help others who have come after me, and that has made all the difference. It is my hope that as the world becomes more aware of this issue that more people will learn to support the spouse in this journey, to figure out how it all fits within the framework of their faith.