It doesn’t matter the age your heart gets broken, the pain and the sentiments stay the same. It was hard finding out that my ex is on the down low. Even now, two months into this reality, I’m just now realizing I am indeed nursing a broken heart. You never want to admit that you are hurting or show that although you faced your fears, did the right thing, made the world take a second look at him and questioned the validity of your damaging proclamation ….that somewhere in the rumble is a broken heart.
Nurse Debbie Thomas-Brown has taught me that the Jamaican down low man is no different from any other man living elsewhere in the world. Maybe in Jamaica this deception prevail because especially in my social strata gay men cannot lead a normal life. When I blurted out his damning deeds I was so sure his free loading attitude, his lazy work ethics was what led him to the down low lifestyle. He was swayed by the easy life and didn’t care that he was having sex with men to get money. This is not true, I know now, that to be on the down low, having sex with men was who he really was. Woman are just covers for a life he is unable to lead.