Writing to you....Is like having a conversation with you both.
So much is in my head to be sorted out and that last email Debbie sent floored me; giving me so much food for thought.
I know you say don’t blame yourself. But I have a confession……and I know that I am stronger in myself today, to accept this blame. Had I been smarter, I wouldn’t be in the corner now wearing my straight spouse dunce cap. For years my ex and I have been on and off. I don’t believe we have ever had a full 2 year run without breaking up. We mostly breakup because when the pressure hits and he can’t contribute and I am doing all the spending, over long periods, my head get hot, we kick off and him go chill god he know where.
I am no angel…I have dated, loved, been loved and hurt as well during the break –up. In 2008 I was dating