My sister you are so blessed. God is watching over you. I cannot remember when another straight spouse moved so fast. Not even myself. I was in denial for a WHILE. My sister you make me proud. NOW YOU MUST GUARD YOUR NEGATIVE STATUS. Never give anyone the chance to make you ill. No man is worth dying for. Let your kids motivate you to stat focus and strong. Yeaaaah.
Now, because you are negative does not mean he is. Did you get that? He may be positive and you are not. It has happened often because he can become infected in between his sexual times with you or God kept you safe. If you talk to him implore him to get tested so he can at least know his status. Knowing your status is powerful. You already feel how powerful that is.
Hey I know you may still have love for your ex but that is OK. You don't stop loving someone suddenly. You may never even stop, but since you are loving yourself more now you will be able to cope better. Just don't allow him to get your guard down. Any hurt that comes to you after this point will devastate