You know this is dyam foolishness! These days, there is such excellent treatment for HIV the survival rate is very, very high. Of course, if you don't get tested, you don't know. And if you don't get treated, if necessary, you're signing your own death warrant! Do you want your tiefin husband, who stole your trust, to rob you of your life? You can't afford to wait.
Tomorrow, tomorrow you have to just step out in confidence and arrange to get tested. Your daughters are depending on you to be there for them. I hope you find the strength to let them help you bear this burden.
Lots of positive vibes!