My sister you are so blessed. God is watching over you. I cannot remember when another straight spouse moved so fast. Not even myself. I was in denial for a WHILE. My sister you make me proud. NOW YOU MUST GUARD YOUR NEGATIVE STATUS. Never give anyone the chance to make you ill. No man is worth dying for. Let your kids motivate you to stat focus and strong. Yeaaaah.
Now, because you are negative does not mean he is. Did you get that? He may be positive and you are not. It has happened often because he can become infected in between his sexual times with you or God kept you safe. If you talk to him implore him to get tested so he can at least know his status. Knowing your status is powerful. You already feel how powerful that is.
Hey I know you may still have love for your ex but that is OK. You don't stop loving someone suddenly. You may never even stop, but since you are loving yourself more now you will be able to cope better. Just don't allow him to get your guard down. Any hurt that comes to you after this point will devastate
You must also return for the follow up tests. Remember to get the other tests done. Your doctor can order them but you have to be specific what tests you want to have done so he can order them. Remember the list I sent you and you can add anything else you like.
Learning to drive...that is a very confident step. Wow, you are really staying on course. I am so happy for you.
The radio was great this morning. Dr. Cooper said it was excellent, so that made me feel good. I got more emails today from other women. Some have unusual needs but I will try to help them all. People need to know that they can trust someone to open up to them like this. I am a total stranger so maybe that works better for some people.
Now that you are getting your confidence back remember that you must not beat up on yourself if you feel like you take some steps backwards. That may happen but that means you are normal. Love on yourself, love on yourself, love on yourself. Got it? It's all about you and your girls now. It is OK to put yourself first right now too. Just remember that your girls are watching and learning from you. Give them only positives to learn. You have already made them proud.